Creation story dating around 2016 bc
I am not saying there is an excuse why he did it, but there is a reason.And knowing the reason can be therapeutic in a way.I thought if I made his life as easy and manageable as possible he would love me even more and would suddenly find the motivation to get his life in order.I paid for our dates because he couldn’t afford to, I did his laundry (…because he couldn’t afford to), I cleaned his apartment, I fixed his resume, I searched for job listings online and applied to them for him, I kept doing and doing and was baffled as to why he kept sinking deeper into his rut.Being young and naive and having no real understanding of what love is except for what I saw in the movies, I thought my love could heal him somehow.I thought if I loved him enough then he would snap out of his funk and be the man I knew he could be. I didn’t encourage him to get his act together and instead, tried to take care of everything for him.It’s not that he doesn’t love his partner, she just can no longer connect to him in the way he wants most and when that sort of pure appreciation comes from another source he can’t help but be drawn to it. During the workday, he is on fire with passion and thrives off of meeting the daily challenges of his job.After killing it all day, he comes home feeling on top of the world and wants to share that energy with his girl. He feels like she doesn’t accept the most important part of his life, the thing that makes him feel effective and worthwhile.
I felt devastated and I beat myself up over it for months. The more I tried to “fix” him, the more damaged he felt. The more I tried to make his life easier, the more comfortable he became with his own misery.
He needs to feel like he is “conquering,” like he is significant, like he is having an impact on the world, like his is pursuing his mission in life.